by Vyckie
For her 13th birthday, I got Hazelle a ticket to Seattle ~ she’ll be leaving tomorrow to spend Spring Break with Laura. When Laura lived here with us, she and Hazelle became pretty good friends 
This morning, about 5 minutes before leaving for school, Hazelle (who is a 6th grader) asked me to write a response to the letter/book report she wrote for me as a class assignment. I scribbled out a letter and she’s off to school ~ here’s what I wrote:
Dear Hazelle,
Thank you for the letter telling me about the book, The Giver ~ which you are reading in school.
Back when we were home schooling and attending home church, I heard about a really terrible book (worse than Harry Potter) which “they” were promoting in the public schools ~ that book was called The Giver. Continue reading »
Tomorrow morning, Laura and I will be interviewed on a talk radio show in Long Island, in Metropolitan New York ~ WUSB 90.1 FM is a community and college supported radio statio. The show is called “medicine unplugged” and deals with the unfair social, economic and religious obstacles to the wellness of people. Host Wilbur Larch covers everything from the atrocities against women in Sudan to the outrageous practices of Big Pharma and Insurance companies here at home. The audience is mostly the early morning drive time traffic and the residents of the Stony Brook and surrounding towns and specially the students at the State University in Stony Brook.
Laura’s segment, which was pre-recorded, will air first from 6 – 6:30 a.m. I will be on live from 6:30 to 7. Wow. Wish us well ~ and be sure to tune in if you’re in the area, okay?
by Laura
About this time I was talking to some Christian friends of mine about going to counseling. I guess I thought that counseling wasn’t quite the failure that drugs were so I was willing to try it. Not to mention that I knew I needed to do something before I totally lost it. My friends told me about a counseling center near me that was run by the International Center for Biblical Counseling (ICBC). They were Christian-based, of course, and they had a ministry that included helping people who were being demonically oppressed or possessed.
Now, whether or not a Christian can be bothered by demons was an issue that we had discussed at times with our former pastor and I really didn’t have an opinion on it. The thing that drew me to ICBC was that they were Christian counselors…who worked on a donation basis. Being that we didn’t have any health insurance and not much extra money, I wanted to go to ICBC to get help.
I called them and they told me that they would really like to help me but they didn’t have any openings. In fact they wouldn’t have any until later in the fall. This was summer. I needed help now. What to do? What to do? I asked the receptionist if she could recommend anyone else and she gave me the name of a counselor in the city an hour and a half away. I thanked her and called his office.
I will call him Tom. Tom was not a part of a ministry. He was a part of a business. His fee was $90 for a 50 minute hour! This seemed so totally out of reach that I figured I would not be able to do it. I went to my husband and talked to him about it. I told him the price. I waited……he actually said okay! I was really glad. I think he wanted to see me get some help and if I wouldn’t take the drugs, at least this was something. Our home was not a pleasant place to be for anyone and as my ex always used to say,”If Mama ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy!”
I always hated that. Continue reading »
by Laura
Now I sing what ever I want…..and I play guitar when I sing…..and no one chooses the songs for me….and my husband appreciates and enjoys it when ever I pick up my guitar. So different…so nice.
I have always been a singer. Some people would say “I’ve got the music in me”. I loved to sing but never had the “stick-to-it-iveness” to learn an instrument. I tried many but they just took too long to learn! But my voice was already there and I already knew how to use it. I couldn’t read music much past “follow the bouncing ball” but that was okay. I sang the lead in 2 musicals in high school and had dreams of being a rock star! Continue reading »
by Vyckie
“Just SMILE, okay?” This photo was taken on my 18th anniversary before church. Warren was in a terrible mood that morning ~ and all I wanted was to get family pictures taken which made us all look like such a happy family. It’s like the more unhappy we were, the more determined I was to put on a good face and show the world how exceedingly happy we were. Ack.
Okay ~ I’m trying to work on writing the next installment of my story ~ but now I’m distracted with another topic ~ Strong emotions in general … and ANGER in particular.
I started a thread to discuss health issues ~ and almost immediately regretted it because as I’ve been reading the angry comments from those who feel very strongly that I need to get my kids vaccinated right away, I have been startled by that old feeling of “How can I make this person happy?” I want everything to be okay.
That’s exactly how I felt all those years in an abusive relationship ~ the one thing I couldn’t stand was for Warren to be angry. If he was put out in any way ~ I’d do whatever was necessary to fix everything for him so that he’d calm down and I wouldn’t have that knot in my stomach that made me feel like a little child who had been sent to her room to await her punishment. Continue reading »
Several people have told me that I looked sooooooooo tired and worn out in the photo I used with this post. It’s true ~ for years I was seriously exhausted and felt like it would be so easy to die ~ all I had to do was surrender to that feeling of being completely spent…
Now that I am “No Longer Quivering” ~ that’s all changed and I have my health back ~ Hooray.
I remember when I first realized that the horrendous stress I’d been under for so many years was mostly relieved and my nerves were beginning to recover.
I was out at the mall with the children on a Saturday afternoon. Something about me just didn’t feel quite right. I wasn’t sick ~ or dizzy ~ What was I feeling? As we walked from store to store, I was so distracted with trying to figure out what was wrong with me. It didn’t actually feel “wrong” ~ just different ~ something totally new. Not exactly light-headed ~ just LIGHT.
Hmmmm … strange.
Then all of the sudden, I figured it out ~ that feeling … was ENERGY!
Wow ~ for the first time in I-can’t-even-remember-when, I didn’t feel like I could just collapse on the spot. I felt good. No aches. No pains. Not exhausted or even tired.
It was amazing!
I smiled and thought to myself, This is something I could get used to.
In the comment section of another post, Jadehawk said…
- “…no interest in modern medicine or vaccines for the kids”
- oooh, that just makes me mad! it’s one thing to have many kids and give them lesser quality of life, but it’s something completely else to be risking their very lives for it!!! And if they’re sheltered in the home, they won’t encounter all those “childhood diseases” until they’re so old they’ll do guaranteed damage.Not to mention that they’re mooching of the heretic’s herd immunity to protect their own children from things like polio. talk about selfish!
which reminds me… i hope your children are vaccinated, my dear ex-QF’ers…?
I think this is an important issue ~ one that is near and dear to QF women. In a hit-n-miss sort of way, I am trying to keep a semblance of organization to the discussions here at No Longer Quivering ~ so, I’ve created this post as a place to discuss health care and related issues which are a big part of the Quiverfull lifestyle. Continue reading »
aimai said…
Vyckie,
I respect your desire to end the thread but its really, really, interesting to some of us. Can’t you put up an open thread on the side “Historical Jesus/Science of History/Archaeological evidence etc…” and let us duke it out?
Here you go, aimai ~ have at it
Don’t know if it would be helpful to move the previous comments over from this post ~ but if you want them here, just copy and paste them all into one post. I’d do it myself, but … I just don’t feel like it. How’s that for an honest excuse? LOL
Kiss me right there, Mom!
I’m up way too late working on my story ~ thought I’d take a break for a minute and go moderate comments. I found the following from “Cynthia” and started to post my own comment in reply ~ but after typing for a bit, decided I don’t want this buried in the comments section ~ it needs to be a post of its own.
Here’s what Cynthia wrote:
Wow, I am amazed how so many things seem to be falling into a straight line for me regarding this issue.
I have nine children simply because I was emotionally and spiritually manipulated into a quiverfull mindset. Finally, with the birth of my last child, we realized that we needed to finish what we had started and raise these children well and I had a tubal ligation. Thus began the walking away. Continue reading »
