5 ~ Select Entries

 

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Pity
You are blind, after all
And didn’t ask to be that way
You stumble around in the dark
Unaware of your surroundings
Crying in frustration
Out of control
And I feel

Fear
You are everywhere
Infiltrating my entire life
And taking away my hopes
You can hear my trembling
Charge for me again
Lunging forward
And I get

Angry
I looked to you
Trusted you, naturally
Only to be turned away
Begged to be your child
To be accepted by you
Dirty street rat
I am

Resolved
Never again
You are not my father
I will not think of you
Except a shadow of the past
That I do not wish to know
But still you haunt me
I become

Chaos
Mixed emotions
Each stronger than anything
Each filling my soul to the limits.
Every emotion I experience
Pulls me deeper
In a whirlwind of
Rounds.

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by Vyckie Bennett (Garrison)

This is a letter to those godly, dedicated Christians who know me (or know of me) from my articles and testimonies which have appeared in popular homeschool publications such as Above Rubies, An Encouraging Word, SALT, Unless the Lord, etc. ~ or who have followed news of our ever-growing family in my monthly column or in updates and prayer requests which I have posted on email groups such as MOMYS Digest, The Lord’s Heritage, FARBITM, and others. I have been an advocate of godly womanhood ~ I’ve encouraged fellow Christian moms in their Quiverfull convictions and have done my best to lead by example in my own family.

This is a difficult letter for me to write ~ mainly because I was so convinced of, and committed to, the Biblical family ideals espoused by what has been termed the “Quiverfull” or “Biblical Patriarchy” movement. I was entirely sincere ~ and I never hesitated to do whatever I believed the Lord was asking of me, no matter the cost to my own personal comfort or convenience.

There is a great deal of heartache and drama in the story of how I came to disavow that whole lifestyle along with the Christian religion and the Bible upon which those family principles are based ~ which could make for some interesting reading if I ever actually get around to writing a book ~ but I guess what it really comes down to is this:

My children were not thriving in the isolated and controlling environment which had developed in our home as a result of following the patriarchal family structure. Continue reading »

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